Archive for May, 2010

Part Three, 3.1, audio book excerpt from “Self-Portrait of Someone Else”

Monday, May 31st, 2010

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This audio excerpt from PART THREE, CHAPTER 3 of my novel “Self-Portrait of Someone Else”, and is around 18 minutes or so in length. The second part of this chapter (3.2) will appear next week.

If you want to listen or download, click here:
27 – PART THREE – 3.1 – Self-Portrait of Someone Else

I hope you enjoy this, and thanks for listening.

STORY – How to write a novel on the themes of violence and family

Friday, May 21st, 2010

The gun that goes bang to shoot a brother
She pointed the gun and took a step closer, placing the barrel against his right nostril, saying, “Now?”

Part One

The man squared his shoulders.
“I have been waiting for you, and for this, for years. Months. Days. Now.”
She nudged the end of the barrel deeper into his nostril. “I’m here for you.”

Part Two

Their mother, stuck in a wheelchair outside the room, hammered on the locked door, shouting, “Stop it! Stop it right now with your nonsense!” Then leaned forward to hear whether they were stopping. Her bladder, over-excited, began flowing into the catheter that ran from her privates to a plastic bag.

Part Three

“Bang,” she said.
“Bang,” he repeated, waiting for her next move.
“No bang!” yelled the old lady’s voice from the other side of the door as her plastic bag overflowed.


There was the loud, quick noise of bang and the old lady gave up hammering on the door, and also gave up all her hopes for the future. Her children were never going to learn.
The puddle on her nice hallway rug spread.

Max Dix, Zero to Six: “The Monkey Brains Scene”

Wednesday, May 19th, 2010

Another short excerpt from “Max Dix, Zero to Six”. The first half of this scene (Garden Scene) was posted last Wednesday. See this if only for the monologue on watching orientals on TV eat monkey brains…


Here’s some stills from this video excerpt:

The elderly man describes what he sees on the tv screen:
Monkey Brains 1

Close-up, fascinated by what he sees:
Monkey Brains 2

Less fascinated…
Monkey Brains 3

Here comes the moment when they lift the skull from the monkey’s head….
Monkey Brains 4

Monkey Brains 5

Disgust begins to seep into the characters….
Monkey Brains 6

Max is told what he has learned.
Monkey Brains 7

Imparting more wisdom for Max to guide his life by…
Monkey Brains 8

Last words of wisdom into the dark….
Monkey Brains 9

Audio book excerpt – Part Three, Doctor Wilkinson & Jeff Peck, from “Self-Portrait of Someone Else”

Monday, May 17th, 2010

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Next up, following up in last week’s Monday’s audio except–a short one, less than four minutes:

PART THREE – Doctor Wilkinson & Jeff Peck

Enjoy, and thanks for listening.

STORY – Suit&Tie-itis

Friday, May 14th, 2010

biz suit&tie-itis

Generally and I really mean specifically if you wear a business suit my first instinct is to wonder What is wrong with you and What are you hiding or What bad decision at what point in life lead you to be in this suit and Why is a tie around your neck? What happened to make you conform to a matching pants and jacket set-up and be Whatever SomeThing Else Wanted You to Be, or How bad did your parents mess up, or how badly were you informed, or lacked the imagination to do something different, like wear non-suits and speak non-suit words? Where did you go wrong? What’s the matter? Strike that, don’t tell me. Useful imaginations with penetrating insights don’t come wrapped up in suits&ties. Your uniformity frightens me, your grin and smile and fierce looks happy in its stress and the monstrous new navel that is your mobile phone with its grating pay-attention-to-me ring tones and your damn the torpedoes career plans. I don’t know what Need in your Search to Satisfy is embedded in wearing a suit, and I don’t know who or how many others you are trying to emulate because it’s like you don’t want to be who could have been — you know like who knows — something more like a real you but it all seems like you want to be who this suit will let you be as you hope hope hope people will think you are someone worth a conformist’s inch of respect or awe. Your conforming clothes set you up as one of the numerous others doing similar jobs that allows you to say, I am like everyone else, wearing my suit, my tie, and that is a dulling comfort. You terrify in your need not to exist on your own terms. Are you a horror show of conventional small-existence, anonymous within those slave’s constraints, dressing for others of your ilk with Behaviors custom-made by one-size-fits-all business model. Who WHo WHO wears suits and says it is good for the soul? You lead with your wallet and meet the expectations of conglomerates. You seem to be the Other, but an empty Other. And that frightens me. The minor Terrorism of the shriveled soul. The opposite of God or the devil. You are the purgatory of identity. Your illness bleeds throughout the world, and it bleeds the world.

Video – “The Garden Scene” from Max Dix, Zero to Six, excerpt from the staged play

Wednesday, May 12th, 2010

Another short excerpt from “Max Dix, Zero to Six”. The second half of this scene will be up next week.


Here’s some stills from this video excerpt:

Max talks to the flowers

Talking to plants

Max and the Grandma-type neighbor laugh about Learning Things:
Max and Grandmother type laughing

The Grandma-Type tells Max about some of The Things of Life:
Grandma type with Max Dix in the garden

Grandma type in thoughtful mode:
Hiliary Barry as Grandmother type considering matters

Max is laughing at a joke the flower’s telling him, which the Grandma type did not hear…
Max laughs

Audio Book – Part Three, 1 (second half) from “Self-Portrait of Someone Else”

Monday, May 10th, 2010

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Continuing from last week, here’s the second part of a long chapter — the present excerpt lasts 16 minutes or so. The first part of this chapter appeared last Monday on this blog. Thanks for your interest, and hope you enjoy. Click below to listen or download this extract:


Story — Spring is in the air because my neck muscles are coming back.

Friday, May 7th, 2010

Neck Muscles exercise looking at women
Spring is in the air because my neck muscles are coming back.

Their return is due to a repetitive exercise that occurs around this time of year, primarily performed while driving in my car in the city or simply walking down the street.

This happens every year since I have lived in Belgium.

Suddenly, where once there were bulky overcoats, lumpy sweaters, long warming skirts, there are now t-shirts, there are short skirts, there are hugging jeans, there are less-is-more everywhere the eye can leer, and voilà, the female form, in all its flagrant permutations, left, right, coming at me, going by me, as my big eyes try to take in all this captivating new information, remembering, getting giddy. Yes, women do have actual bodies with actual shapes.

Like flowers all at once appearing everywhere on the sidewalk, the female form once again there, really right there.
This wonderment may fade with familiarity, within a week or two or three (or four or five), and I’ll be once again used to the female form returned from hibernation everywhere I look, as my neck muscles flex left, then right, as women come at me, go past me, firming, strengthening, informing me that Spring has truly sprung.

Video – The beginning of Max Dix, Zero to Six, excerpt from the staged play

Wednesday, May 5th, 2010

Another short segment from my play, “Max Dix, Zero to Six”. It can only give a taste of the feel for the production. It is the very beginning of the play….


Some stills from this excerpt:

All actors of Max Dix on stage at beginning

Pregnancy problems

parents adore their newly born infant

Max Dix proclaims he is alive & happy to be

Parents try to bribe their child with nonsense

Child get penis circumsized

Child gets baptized a Catholic

Audio Book – Part Three, 1 (first half) from “Self-Portrait of Someone Else”

Monday, May 3rd, 2010

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Continuing from last week, here’s the first part of a long chapter — the present excerpt lasts 19 minutes. The remainder of this chapter will appear next week. Thanks for your interest, and hope you enjoy. Click below to listen or download this extract:

AUDIOBOOK – PART THREE – One (of Two) from Self-Portrait of Someone Else